Friday, February 6, 2015

You Make Me Smile

It's been a long time since I can say I am happy. I mean I tried to cherish every moment in my life after my battle with depression. I did. I have my happiness wall to convince myself that those are the things that made you happy before. Telling myself that I have my happy moments. But for the first time after so long, I can say I smile everyday. Tomorrow is a new day for me and I can't wait to see tomorrow unlike before. 

Thank you dear friend that I just knew. Thank you so much. You gave me hope. Is this love? No, it is happiness. Happiness that I've been waiting for. I'm crying right now cause I am so happy. It's been quite a while someone make me happy. I mean really makes me happy. Regardless of he knowing it or not. Now I can see light at the end of the tunnel.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah. Thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to know someone like him. Thank you ya Allah. Thank you for meeting me with SA. 


Tuesday, February 3, 2015

What If...

There will be one day, sooner or later you will get married, I will get married. But with who? What will my reaction that time? Sad? Happy? When will that day come? Next year? Next 10 years? Or never?

Till the day comes, I will never know. I can only say what if I get married with my first love? What if I will never get married? What if the guy I'm seeing right now is my future husband till death do us apart? 

What if? I will never know till the day comes.