It Wasn't Enough

There's a time when I felt down. Really down. I manage to get up again with the help of my friend and alhamdulillah He always by my side during my ups and downs. I started to be even more grateful with the things I have right now. As for me, I tend to look things physically. If I can see it physically, then I am more convince. 

What I did was, I wrote down all the things that I am grateful for on a piece on an a7 paper ( a4 paper cut into 8 parts ), fold it and put it inside a box. The more paper that I used to write the things that I am grateful for, the more things came in my mind to write it on the paper. At one point I said to myself, you can use every paper that you have, cut every tree to make papers to write the things that you're grateful for, write it on every surface that is writable, but it is still not enough. 

Allah is so merciful. Even when you didn't 'talk' to Him, He still loves you no matter what you did, He still care even if you don't, He still there when you need Him. By the time, you want to 'be back', He will still accept you. 

Alhamdulillah.

My Second Home

I don't visit this place often. But I can say I visited this place more often than I visit my parents'. No one knows abour this except me. Maybe it's true what my friend said, I'm not a person who ask for help even though I really need one. 

I used not to like going to clinic or even hospital because I used not to believe in doctors due to some personal reason. The first time I came to the hospital for check up alone, it's like I've achieved something. Nobody force me to go. I willingly go. I can say that I was so proud of myself for doing that.

Say yay to yourself Dewi! Right now I'm waiting for my turn for check up. The other day I came for drawing some blood to be tested. Hopefully the result is good. I know that my Iron level is low, that's for sure. Nevertheless, been trying to eat Iron rich food.

That's all for now. Toulousss...

Thank you

Dear friend, I had a break down just now. I was shaking, crying and lonely. I texted you. Thank you for reading all my text. Thank you for being there. Thank you.

Everbody Will Have Something To Say About You

Every Inch Of You Is Perfect From The Bottom To The Top

Does any of you recognize this song? Yes you're right! It is All About The Bass by Meghan Trainor . Love this song the first time I listened to it. Been loving this song even more after I read the lyrics and watch the video clip. It's a good song saying that you should love yourself despite of the size you're in whether you're big or small, round or triangular/boxy shape. Just love yourself. But.. Yes but. Some will think that ok I'm just ok in this size, I should love myself. Big/small is good. 

You need to think back, are you doing a healthy lifestyle? If you do and you're just that size, then it is ok! If you're not then you keep on saying I'm ok in this size. I starve/eat whenever or whatever that I want. No it's not ok.

It's good to appreciate whatever shape you are in right now. But is it healthy? Ask yourself.