My Second Home

I don't visit this place often. But I can say I visited this place more often than I visit my parents'. No one knows abour this except me. Maybe it's true what my friend said, I'm not a person who ask for help even though I really need one. 

I used not to like going to clinic or even hospital because I used not to believe in doctors due to some personal reason. The first time I came to the hospital for check up alone, it's like I've achieved something. Nobody force me to go. I willingly go. I can say that I was so proud of myself for doing that.

Say yay to yourself Dewi! Right now I'm waiting for my turn for check up. The other day I came for drawing some blood to be tested. Hopefully the result is good. I know that my Iron level is low, that's for sure. Nevertheless, been trying to eat Iron rich food.

That's all for now. Toulousss...

Thank you

Dear friend, I had a break down just now. I was shaking, crying and lonely. I texted you. Thank you for reading all my text. Thank you for being there. Thank you.

Everbody Will Have Something To Say About You

Every Inch Of You Is Perfect From The Bottom To The Top

Does any of you recognize this song? Yes you're right! It is All About The Bass by Meghan Trainor . Love this song the first time I listened to it. Been loving this song even more after I read the lyrics and watch the video clip. It's a good song saying that you should love yourself despite of the size you're in whether you're big or small, round or triangular/boxy shape. Just love yourself. But.. Yes but. Some will think that ok I'm just ok in this size, I should love myself. Big/small is good. 

You need to think back, are you doing a healthy lifestyle? If you do and you're just that size, then it is ok! If you're not then you keep on saying I'm ok in this size. I starve/eat whenever or whatever that I want. No it's not ok.

It's good to appreciate whatever shape you are in right now. But is it healthy? Ask yourself.

Bersyukur

Assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera. Aku mengaku yg aku ini kurang mengucapkan alhamdulillah. Hanya apabila bende bende besar jadi je aku ucap alhamdulillah. Nikmat nikmat kecil tu aku tak ucap pun alhamdulillah. Baru baru nie, lepas dah buat 'diary', aku cuba nak buat lebih dari 'diary'. Aku pun fikir,mungkin aku nie jenis nak nampak sesuatu tu dulu baru cam owh ok. So aku buat lah macam kotak kesyukuran. 

Kertas A4 tu aku kerat 8 bahagian. Plan nya setiap bahagian tu aku tulis lah satu kesyukuran aku. Bila dah potong bebanyak, kotak pun dah ada. Dengan tenang hati aku tulis lah satu satu kesyukuran yg aku dapat hari nie. Mula mula tulisan cantik. Makin lama makin huduh tulisan. Setiap kali tulis 'alhamdulillah hari ini....', ada je banyak lagi bende yg nak ditulis. Pada satu tahap, aku berhenti. Aku kata kan kepada diriku. Sebanyak mana pun kau tulis Dewi, ada berjuta lagi nikmat yg Allah berikan kepada kita. Cuma kita tak bersyukur je. Kita pandang enteng lagi lagi pada bende bende kecil. Contoh nya bersyukur kerana ada rumah untuk berteduh, masih bangun lagi hari nie, mempunyai anggota badan yg berfungsi dan lain lain. 

Baru nak tulis nikmat yg Allah berikan untuk aku hari nie dah terasa banyak nya. Aku hidup dah 24 tahun. Dah 8500++ hari aku hidup. Setiap hari banyak sangat nikmat yg Allah berikan. Masyallah. Allah itu maha pemurah.

Masyaallah. Bila dah buat kan, rasa aku nie manusia yg sangat sangat kurang bersyukur. Subhanallah. Semoga kita mensyukuri segala nikmat yg Allah telah berikan kepada kita. Bila bila masa sahaja Allah boleh tarik nikmat tersebut. Maka bersyukur lah.